Mind racking..

there's some frens dat had already posted such kinda blog..
and yes u r rite, the agony of thinking bout the future! (shaking head and sighing sadly)
rite after i got my result.. bombardments of calls..
'eh ur son wanna be wat ah?'
'wa, so gud, go be bla bla bla laa, can be successful!'
'do this laa do dat laaa...and bla bla bla... ' = =''
and, not even gaining the relax pace just yet..
my mom was already like
'hey, y u wasting time surfing net for useless purposes?? go check any available scholarships la! write mails to the embassy asking the s'pore stuff la!'
and telling me where to and apply and stuff..
the FACT is.. i DON even noe wat i am to be in the future!
so, heck am i gonna choose wat to learn and stuff like dat?
its all so confusing and hectic and pressurizing at one time..
i mean, all the stuff is like avalanching towards me, non-stop, wif no mercy and wif full force..
(swt)
actually, i don rily understand y am i soo.. soo sad or watever it is now..
i jz feel unhappy, bt, not sure of the source..
maybe the future?
or the society?
or even myself..
gaaaah!! *bangs head to wall*
guess dat im jz pathetic in making decisions.. even for my own life..