Thoughts..

lots of things do happen in night huh?
so.. yesterday night.. miss L told me the confusion in her..
and i cant do no nothing..
well, im not soo clear about the situation too actually...
as the chinese sayings 'dang ju zhe mi, pang guan zhe qing'
zzz
im actually as confused as her too..
i dunno whether i shud have faith in this relationship anymore?
i jz cant rily picture the outcome between both of us..
and the thoughts of it makes me... urgh...
well, its normal, 1st factor is.. she don rily understand her feeling towards me..
she said dat im her best male fren, and share most secrets wif me..
bt then, she cant rily differenciate the feeling of real love and frenship-kinda-love..
and so.. i can do nothing bout it..
bt well for me, im quite clear dat i like her.. haha
cuz i do stuff for her dat aint gonna happen for other gals..
i get panic when she's crying.. i wont be happy if she's sad, and im trying my VERY best to keep talking to her.. although at times i noe its colder than subzero temperature..
i felt so puny, tiny, even PICO when am in front of her.. everything is not gud enuf for her.. practically, no 1 is compatible for her! dats wat i think.. and i noe its crappish in some way..
she's like, the feeling activator in me, am happy cuz of her, am sad cuz of her.. am emo CUZ OF HER TOO! =p
every night i will be like, thinking of her b4 i sleep, bt weird is dat she never appears in my dream? lol
so.. to not burden myself wif all these thoughts.. jz keep this in my mind..
things will get straight at the end of the boat? lols, chinese proverb again haha..
bt even if we cant be lover or couple or anything.. i still hope dat i can still be her best-male-fren?
ha, the best fren dat is more important dat her best frens..
and so.. not onli me, miss A is having the same prob too!
bt it seems dat their prob is better, since miss A had started to have some liking towards mr LR, and mr LR had alwes love her.. the issue IS, both of them arent brave enuf to take the 1st step, and well, miss A's parent is the conservative type (as most of our parents are) and forbids coupling at this age (18 for reader's info), while mr LR is afraid of being rejected, and lost a fren like miss A forever..
wat im gonna say is... mr LR, CHAIN HER LIKE WAT U DO ALWES!!!! =D
yeah, its like, the food is ready, jz nid to open ur mouth and eat it! (sounds rather weird lol)
and keanjie, seriously, I LOVE UR 195 and diamond earrings, its so meaningfull.. wish u guys the best lol
owh, since blogging dy, jz wanna giv advise..
miss O, stop being insecure, there's ACTUALLY some1 u can trust, jz dat u din find dat perfect some1 yet =)