Utter randomness and spontaneity (Spore trip)

It all started with this....

And I was like, eh? What is this guy up to? Where is he heading?
(Dialogue is not exactly the same but accurate representative of it)

And so I went:

'Hey where are you going lar?'
'Abroad~'
'Which country la??'
'The land of Lion, Singapore!'
'Wait... abroad.... with a BIKE??'
'Yeap'

I was like.... Dafuqqqq?!
And I kept asking him for more details as the conversation had my adrenaline pumping.

Initially I thought he is so hardcore, cycling from Serdang all the way to Spore! But then only I understand that we will be sitting bus to Spore and tour the island instead. Ahahaha

That, was Thursday night.
The trip, will be on Saturday morning.
Checked passport, it is still valid, alright good to go!
Get a bike on Friday, a fold-able ones!And good, I'm ready to go!

And so, the journey that is totally unplanned (by me actually, Christopher planned to have it all along~) begins! (Dramaticnyaaaa)

There were some mishap here and there due to my lack of preparation and inadequacy in travelling experience.

1st case: I didn't bring enough RM to be converted to SGD (and the rate is 2.6 now mind you! oh so pain!) And so we have to stop awhile at the customs area just to find an ATM machine and take more money out, and that is when the 2nd case happened.

2nd case:
*After disembarking from bus in custom*
Chris: 'Eh, how come you looked so relax ah? I remember you got another orange luggage with you wan wor?'
Me: *total silence*
Chris: 'Don't tell me.......'
Me:  'Shit.'
That was all that I could utter, panic strike! Luckily he was quite steady and calmed me down.
His action was worth learning, when we face a problem, instead of lamenting on how clumsy, or kept thinking 'OH I SHOULD HAVE CHECK IT' and stuff like that, we should be calm, and find for a solution immediately.

He took out his broadband, find the contact for the bus company, contacted the hotline, and managed to track down the schedule of the bus. See, ini macam baru pro ma~~ It was a true relieve that he is around to help me out!

Fortunately (in a way) that luggage only contained things like clothes and toothbrush, all the essential items like wallet, passport and HP is still with me~ So we have decided to take the luggage on the way back BTS instead! And so I travel to Singapore only with the set of cloths I'm wearing. haha.

As soon as we reached Woodlands.

Yeap thats my bike~ See the relative size of the bike frame, and wheels compared to my body. Hahaha, I personally prefer bigger bikes, more power, but then, in order to travel around city and fit into buses/MRT, this is the only choice~

*Ignore my noob face, lol*
The 3 of us, cycling around Spore~

Basically the cycling is fun and all, and previous leg training minimize my fatigue of cycling. But..... my BUTT.IS.SERIOUSLY.HURTTTT!!!

Seriously, I have no idea why it is in such pain, maybe cuz its the first time since many years that I cycled, and we started of with such 'extreme' (in my definition lol) journey. Imagine the pain when you cycled for a duration, and when you lift your ass from the bike seat, the whole body is paralyzed from the pain for like 2-3 seconds..
And everytime the bike pass by a dent/bump/irregular surface on the road, I would just winced in pain. That was the biggest drawback, but in a way invaluable experience for this journey!

Things that I notice in Spore:

1) There are a lot of personal business-supermarkets there, unlike here in Msia, most of it dominated by hypermarkets like Giant, Tesco etc.

2) Its FREAKING HARD TO BUY AN UNDERWEAR

3) They will look at you one kind when you carry those bags of bikes around (well mayb this happens in Msia too lol idk)

4) The availability of cycling lane makes a lot of Singaporean bikers! It is regular to see people travelling around using bicycle!

5) A lot of things in Singapore is concerned with Fine. There is an underground ramp (just like jejantas, but its underground) to cross over the road. Cycling there will be fined 1000 FREAKING SGD. (wattaf?!) And then I saw a road sign saying something about expressway, and I think it has to do with the smart tag thingy, and then it says something like 'Singaporean will be fined 500 SGD if x comply with that'. And do you know that if you do not install a head and tail light on ur bike, u will b fined for 20 SGD after 630pm? *random facts of the day lol*

6) There is Green curry Mcchicken in Spore MCD branches! Mcdeluxe burger with green curry sauce, bt i still prefer the original ones. And do you know there are no refills of soft drinks in MCD Spore? Ahhh so paisehhhhhhhhhh lol

Another pic of my cute little bike. lol

So we cycled all day long, and reached Changi Beach at night. It was really nice (but sadly no pic available) with the sea breeze and all, and it was quite a sight that there are actually a lot of ppl that BBQ and pitch their camps to overnight there! Where to see such sight in Msia!

And after about 15 minutes.. Thunderstorm occurred.

Rushed to a pondok, and a group of people just ended their bbq party and packing things to go home. We were drenching wet but they did not invite us to come inside, instead, we have to inch our way to the edge of the pondok, close enough just not to be soaked under the rain..

Suddenly, a wild cat appeared with its dripping wet body and appeared to be cold and hungry. And suddenly, somehow I empathize the cat, maybe because we are in a similar condition as well, cold, and just ate a few bread for dinner. *sad background music*

Then, christopher was like, hey, airport is just another 4.6 km away!! I was in quite a painful situation at that time, my ass was literally killing me! But then, weighing the risk of overnight in this unguarded beach with so many strangers, its better staying in the airport, at least there is less danger, and protected from rain. haha

So, we decided to cycle to the airport, cuz we THOUGHT it was 4.6km onli...

Manatau......





(the story shall continue in the next post cuz i'm leaving for lunch now, kbye! lol)

悄悄话

‘喂~’


那么简单的一个字， 都能让我的心跳加速，笑了起来~

就喜欢你靠近我， 对我 小小声的说话 =)

还 记得我读过一个这样的文章：

当两个人吵架时，往往都会很大声的回应对方。 为什么呢？ 那是因为两个人的心， 已经距离很远了。。。。

而刚热恋的情侣， 都会窃窃细语的与对方说话~ 那是因为， 那俩的心都很靠近，很亲密，很多时候，就算不说， 也会明白~

一时的unfounded randomness. 哈哈哈哈， 要一直保持这热恋的甜蜜哦! (哇牢好像有点太肉麻了！）

We live with love. <3 br="">

Uncertainties.

Dubious, uneasiness, anxious, ambivalence, you name it. These are all emotions that we will come across some days in our lives.
In fact, some of us are troubled by it, every single day, by every decisions to be made, big or small.

Nevertheless, it is our choice, our responsibility.

Choosing a school:
Am I stepping into the right school?

Getting into f4:
Science stream or art stream?

Finishing f5:
Public or private institution, or in some, to work?

Getting into an institution:
Which program guarantees my success?

Finishing basic tertiary education:
To further study or jump into work force?

And, the one to be discussed today:
Is she/he really the one for me?

This is, IMO,is a question that posed in front of everyone, before they decide to engage in a serious relationship. Why this sudden realization you might ask. Haha, it all stems out from the party last night, when everyone was excitedly drinking, gambling and stuff, a few of us decided to just sit in a corner and talked about random stuff about relationship, while, of course, not forgetting to gossip around lol.

Gathering around with friends activates my 8-gua gene all the time. lol

Aaaanyway, back to the topic. So this is the question.. Is he/she the one for me?

Most of the time, if not all, is when a guy likes a girl, and his 'good feelings' (I shall categorize a relationship into 3 levels, from good feeling --> like --> love) is well reciprocated by the girl as well. Both of them likes each other and felt good when being together, but somehow, the doubt arises.

Is this feeling true? Am I really loving him/her or is this just an expression of concern due to the lack of companion / social norm of being into a relationship / peer pressure?

How is his/her treatment to me different compared to other boy/girls?

Is it really possible to know how and where this relationship will be, if we do not give each other a chance to know each other more? The transition from 'feeling good' to 'like' requires a period of time where both of them know each others' longs and shorts, while from 'like' to 'love', in my opinion, requires maturation of the bonding that can be acquired only through hardships and resolved conflicts. Accepting him/her as who he/she is.

You know, there is a saying that goes, 'do not commit into a relationship if you are unsure of your feeling, it is not child's play you know!'
But, again, is it possible to be sure of your own feeling before committing into a relationship? This is not rhetoric, I do hope for some answers from the readers. haha.

But today, I'm truly lucky and blessed to have made the first move, well, after being brain-washed by her friends. hahahaha~

Even the scenario stated above occurred to me, uncertainties of my own feeling + afraid of being rejected halted me from doing the right thing - to pursue what I've been longing for. A companion.

That is why, I'm happy that I did something brave, courageous and dispelled my uncertainties 158 days back =)

The Sunshine that makes me smile all the time, you are, and always will be <3 br="">

Better late than never!

2nd Day~
I know it has been some time since the last post, that I promised to have it on sooner but oh well, the lazy gene in me prevailed ~.~

The first destination that we went for the 2nd day!

Lang Tengah! Its a great place for phototaking =D the breeze is just lovely! Plus, a symbolic place that we've been to Langkawi before. hahaha
Actually, anywhere with breeze is great, I just love the feeling of the air from the sea gushing against me =)

And next we continued on to the Taman Lagenda (literally translates to The Legendary Garden), which I don't see any point why we should go there at the first place..
Aside from this stretch of road lined by trees (most of em dead trees mind you!), the whole garden has nothing more to see.
Well at least this road serves as a good photoshooting spot as well~ (yi lu he ni zou xia qu =D)

But, oh well, too bad I'm just too un-romantic to say out those words and to take some romantic, scenic picture.

"Wow, what a nice scenery over here!"

"Yeah, lets take some picture of us in half squat  position with a constipated look on our faces!"

Well, that pretty up sums up the picture above. lol (Jump-shot fail)

Next stop, we went to the cable car area.

In which we'd decided to give up on it because we have to wait for MORE THAN 2 HOURS just to have a ride on the cable car.
Plus, the skybridge is under maintenance so once we got up there, there will be nothing much for us to see anyway~ (Self consolation)

Since there's nothing much to see in the cable car place (I forgot the exact name actuallyyyyy) we went to the nearest tourist spot beside it~Telaga Tujuh waterfall!

The road up was kinda steep!

Ok, failed illusion lol but yeahh I hope I made my point hahaa

And the climb uphill was not rewarding, AT ALL! Why?

This is what we got! Walaoo ehh! They should rename the waterfall into waterTRICKLE ~.~
I don't know, was it afflicted with drought or something??

Random picture: Miss L, so cute, hahahahaha, macam some small kid thinking of getting down to water or not~

And next!  (Yeah our agenda is kinda packed I guess. lol)
Initially we wanted to go to Pantai Pasir Hitam + Gunung Tengkorak. But a few locals said that there is nothing worth going over that 2 places, so, we directly went to Pantai Cenang, cuz its one of the most happening place in Langkawi! =D

Waiting for the sun to set (it was about 5+pm near 6 at that time) Look at the ray that reflected on the water, and some of the rays that is dissipating through the clouds. And a GREAT bonus point of being really really windy! Love it =D

I just love candid pictures =D

And this is one sad story. Once upon a time, starfish A was swimming (do they actually swim??! IDK lol) innocently along the beach, searching for his (or her, well IDK as well hahah) long lost son starfish B
Suddenly! A group of  reckless young teens came along, picked him up, shoved him up to the beach, flip it over and stick starfish B on it!
Forced copulationnnnnnnnnn (forced rape of starfish muhaha) The end.

ok. something random that we did on the beach lol

Love this the most =D

It was all very fun, but the main objective for us to be there, to see the sun set, was disrupted by an untimely clump of clouds. But nevertheless it was fun going to the beach just to relax =D

Anddddd, finally! The 2nd day comes to an end, a few rounds of gossiping before falling to sleep (no alcohol YET, cuz the next day we have to go snorkeling early in the morning~)
Couple sweater between me and her, unplanned hahaha, and we even brought the same plastic, unplanned, woohoo~ lol ok nth much jz randomly saying kthxbai till the next post!!

2nd Pomelo Trip!

I'm sure some, if not most of you know that I went to Langkawi few weeks earlier, on 15-18th January. If my memory is not playing a trick on me, I guess its my first time of me stepping on that island! Well, here goes!

Day 1
Our flight is on  6.45pm, so the first day's plan was to fly there and take some good rest, while eating the SUPPOSEDLY nice and cheap seafood in Langkawi! (Well, the logic goes that Langkawi is an island and its surrounded with fresh seafood thus the abundance will cut the cost while promising quality delicacy but oh well, you can say I dream too much ~.~)

As we arrived Langkawi and planning for dinner. Waze is an indispensable apps for that period!

Well, one thing I've learned for sure is that, NEVER, EVER, TRUST ENTIRELY UPON REVIEW!

'XX restaurant is famous for their fresh and cheap seafood.'
' Nice.'
'A must-go place while visiting Langkawi!'

And all these review really did make me feel like 'OH YEAH AWESOME WE GONNA GET SOME REAL NICE FOOD TODAYYY!'
Turned out to be a big disappointment =.= the standard is even worse than that of KL, and the price is not that cheap too.
Funny thing is that, when we asked the uncle about the famous dishes of his restaurant:
Me: 'Uncle, so what's your famous seafood dishes over here ah?'
Uncle: 'We only have what we have in the menu, anyway, roasted chicken is famous here'
SEAFOOD RESTAURANT FAMOUS FOR ROASTER CHICKEN!!
Ok, maybe I exaggerated a bit, but still, I cant hide my disappointment. Grrr.

Then we go jalan jalan pasar malam, and went back hotel and sleep. Not much of activity for day 1! I guess everybody is tired from traveling on that day. You might ask, 'why Langkawi if no booze!?'
That, is for the 2nd day. But I must say, I was having insomnia for the first day due to several reason. (Little deer randomly collide)

Ok, till the next post! hahaha

LOST IN APEK HILL!!!!

Partially.
Tend to grab your attention.
And if you've managed to read till this sentence, ok I succeeded! lol, anyway, Apek hill.... Not-so-pleasant experience for today!

Left my hse at about 6.15am, reached the entrance of Apek hill at 7am because went to the wrong place.

Long story short, started hiking at about 7.15am. What's the first step in hiking? Warm up? Explanation of safety precautionary steps? NO!
Set up code name! haha xD
Our group of 5 consists of : Satay, Leng Lui Yan, Ali, 33 and CT, special name right? hahah, since they say we should not use our true name in forest for reasons that I have no idea why!

Jalan jalan trek trek, we managed to reach the waterfall quite late.. At about 10am+ if I'm not mistaken, this is due to the stamina of one of us is not that strongggggggggg (my advise, we really have to have basic stamina requirement before hiking to make the whole journey more enjoyable!)

Reached the waterfall, ignore my expression please -.- (thats my expression haha)
Guess who is who!

Anyway, what I can say is that, the size and view of the waterfall is really.... DISAPPOINTING!

Its so small, so low and so shallow!! All the effort to go all the way is not worth it at all! Although I do enjoy the process of hiking lar...

Sigh, kena con liao, and I thought the waterfall would be something like this:

Okay, might be exaggerating a bit lol~
But actually its only something like this:

Sigh..... The water only reaches about my ankle level! So miniature =/

And so we turned back rather disappointed as we were expecting something greater, as we are descending down the hill:

Gym equipments! Who would have thought that in the middle of nowhere something like this appears! lol

 P/S: Ignore my pink shirt and sexy upper part please. lol

And this is the part, the day where I should not trust others easily. FYI, there are A LOT of different route either going uphill or downhill, thus in the middle way of going downhill we asked a passerby for direction, and she pointed the wrong way!!

So we ended up going down the longer and harder way, reaching the bottom of the hill at 12pm... Imagine that...

And, that's not all!!

We ended up at the wrong exit as we were during the entrance!
 Dragging the tired body with sore leg and growling stomach for another 2km under the scorching sun...!!!

At last... We manage to reach back our car at about 12.45pm.... Sigh, tough hike...

 So, that's the imba journey we had for today, PARTIALLY lost in Apek Hill, the address is all very misleading and I advise others who intend to hike there, PLEASEEE check your GPS properly before heading there! Like, seriously =l

Anyway, before I end the post today,

Starting violin with babysteps now =)

Oh well, at least I know how to play a 'Happy Birthday' song! Hahaha, currently practicing on Disney's pieces, as Miss L loves it much =)

That's all, till the next time folks! Peace! =D

Looking around

Wow I can still see a lot of my friends are still actively blogging, while me,  *touches blogger e-dust* its 50 inches thick!

From this I can see that my power of persistence is not as good as others, at least in terms of blogging. =/ Oh well, ok skip!

Just figured out that I should rekindle my blogging habit as my brain is turning rusty from the lack of thinking and force feeding of medical knowledge. I tend to be less creative and less receptive, in other words, I AM EVOLVING INTO A SLOWPOKE!!

Ok, so I reckon this might be a way to sharpen my mind, aside from Dota 2, yea I STRONGLY believe that helps too! =p

Its fun to have someone with sharp mind and some sense of humour around, it really lightens up the whole atmosphere! And this is important now because... It would be a better companion if you are a funny one =D


And, as you guys know, its 2014 now...! Woohoo HAPPY NEW YEAR! (Confetti + fireworks + blasting sound effect)
 That's partially why I wana blog again, lol

Oh well, at least I am trying. lol, his expression is epic though.

So, as most of you all have read thru the previous post, I believe you all know that I am 'occupied' now. But truth to be told, actually, are there really GREAT differences between single and having a partner? Just curious.

 #1
For me, there is this weird longing sense all the time, but somehow, this would not compel me to find her all the time! When I was single, of course this is non existent and there wont be particular someone in my mind all the time even though the thing I'm doing has nothing to do with her!
The #justwanabewithyou feeling is too damn high! -.-

 #2
When I was single, I looked at other girls all the time. Now that I'm in a relationship, I still look at other girls all the time xD

#3
This I must admit, after being into a relationship, I tend to over think at times, I'm worried if my action will result in a wrong doing. How to do this/that etc, but I guess I just have to ease off and let it flow. But then, I still think that some effort has to be done to maintain a happy/healthy relationship! Cant be letting it spinning wildly around right?

#4
I want to know every single details of her if possible, but due to my laziness, it has not been completely done. hahaha. Which, if previously someone ask me to do that, I will be like...

#5
My tongue has not been any sweeter before. Which sometimes its kinda.... weird for me to accept as well. I have the perception that love has to be expressed, of course, conveniently by words, but action speaks louder and thus, I have to do more and talk less!

Anyway, that's what I think la, actually I don't really know what I'm writing as well, so, yeah.

Going Apek hill tomorrow with housemate, 2 more final papers before I'm liberated!!! =D

Till then guys, see ya! =)

200th Post

To understand why I decided to write this post, it has great connection with the last few sentences of the previous post. And, I did it!

That's why, I said, a new phase in life =)

Of course, this is just the beginning, and things are still in a dream-like state (At the moment of declaration I just can't believe its happening!) We will work on it, TOGETHER! =D

Thinking back, ah... Its some rare occasion to find myself being speechless ok! But, being in front of her, its just like that, I can still remember how I can fry eggs at both of my cheeks yesterday!


This is not much of a great gift or what, but, 200th post, she, shall be dedicated to. *Feeling hopeful*

Wow, it is 5 inches thick!

'Last post since February', wow.. It has been some time since I last posted anything here.. The dust here is 5 inches thick (haha?), or you would rather choose, THE LAMENESS IN HERE IS MORE THAN 9000!!! (Please read it in DBZ Vegeta's voice. lol)

Anyway, just came back from my Milo Breakfast Run... 1st time joining a running event, and consider it to be quite ok for me, since its 7km for someone my size! Aaaaaaanddd, to complete it within an hour! (Clapping effect and cheering in backgroud) Hahaha, lol, actually nothing to be proud of, in comparison to others, this is just something average, but for me, well, not bad, its a good experience, to freaking force your stamina to the limit just to make it within an hour. lol

Everyone got that medal, so, yeah, its pretty much not that valuable lol..

A lot of things has happened in this semester, as usual, hectic life as university students. But this semester, or rather, recently, I've set my direction during this undergraduate life, to focus my attention to nothing but only 3 areas:
1) In faith, Soka Gakkai Malaysia
2)In Golden Key Honours Society
3) Dance! Or Upm eXtreme Dancer (UXD) club
 No more issues about body splitting, being irresponsible, time management etc etc, this is the 3 things I will strive to do my best, and to commit fully into it!
Talk about dance, I had my Dance Concert - Live 2 Dance during this semester too, some of the pictures:

Dey I duno why I have that expression in 2nd pic dey... lol, naymind la, at least got people say I looked thinner in that pic, so, ok lar~ (Pictures are full of deceptions! Refer to miss TJ for more info =p)

Oh yaaa, I haven't even introduce my coursemates! (is this even necessary?) Never mind, will do so anyway xD

2 boys over there are my house mates, if that is important laa lol

And in the mean time, as a compulsory criteria in order to finish my entreprenuership course, we've formed a group of people selling, guess what, Running Man T-shirts! One of the shirts that I bought for myself :

And the back we will even write Korean version of your name on it! =D (ok, don wan promote liaooo)

What's most important happening in this sem is that.. I'm opening my heart to another girl. No no its not that she likes me, but its the other way round, and, the uncertainty in me of whether just plainly liking her, or if she's really THE ONE, is holding me back from doing anything since last time. But now, I'm trying to reach up to her, since we have nothing in common (different programs, college) causing practically no time to interact at all! So, its up to me to be more proactive, and.. Well, just see what would happen! Nothing too much to be expected, just hope that things wont go too awkward! haha.. One thing I noticed is that, the confidence I have in front of any other girls would just disappear in front of her! Weird! ha.. Alright, enough of babbling I guess, waiting to see me myself write for the next post! Have a pose to end this post xD

Cheers!

Promoter, again.

You know what's the hardest part working as a promoter?

-Entertaining irritating customer?
-Working your ass off pushing stocks out?
-Handling damaged cans emitting foul odor?

The WORST part of working as a promoter is that, THERE IS NOTHING TO DO!!

Last weekend was the peak time where the traffic was the highest, approximately 2 thousand cartons of beers sold in 2 days. Then, silence follows, Monday, MOURNDAY. All the customer tak tau pigi mana liao... = =''

The 2nd day of boredom entails, but this time, we got smarter! (Do we?)
Few of the promoter gathered and played 'Killer', keep telling cold jokes and lame riddles, and at last 'gambled' hahaha, too bad Miss M chow already, if not she can gamble together.. haha =D

But oh well, at least that killed some time there. Haha.

Ok, working days are not worth mentioning here, I don't get anything exciting or worth noting anyways.

Recently I'm reading a book by Richard Dawkin's 'The Greatest Show On Earth'.
Going back to my memories in 1st semester, attending Philosophy of Science course, the lecturer is a true hardcore supporter of Creationist.

 His lecture have me thinking The Theory of Evolution is nothing but absurdity. An agenda brought up by Europeans and later being manipulated by Hitler and a few more leaders into Social Darwinism, or, in easier term 'Survival of the Fittest'.

But, THIS book really proves otherwise, I'm not even halfway through it and I can see that this Theory of Evolution is consistent with a lot of modern scientific discovery and its not just simply a bogus.

Still reading, still open to opinions!

Anyway, I find funny people, funny!(Please insert YOUDONTSAY meme, lol) Haha! Fun to be with =D

朋友， 真的很重要

There are times, where I've already forgot, why I would smile.

To be polite? To ease the tense?

The smile, has its own motive, its own function, its not true.

Its been quite some time since I have my own true smile, and some hearty great laugh.

But, you guys really made me laugh, haha, it feels good you know, laughing uncontrollably =D

Now that I know, friends that don't meet all the time, friends that don't say all those *insert ultra gay seal* words, but those who meet once in a while, still connected and still can mix around without any awkwardness, are the best!

* Like this picture, not bad. haha

Anyway, nowadays, I'm planning a future, that is currently opposing my own will. Well, that may be the best for me, but, darkly, secretly, I don't really want to do that... Ohhh the rebellious devil within is gaining advantage! Sometimes when you are dealing with people and things, and you feel soooo fed up that you just wish that you could be someone lazy, someone irresponsible and someone who could just say 'so what?'. As bad as it sounds, sometimes, I just want to be like that, but the conscience of me knows that this is really wrong, and that is what still making me doing things I'm doing. Hmm..

It has been some time since I last updated my post.. Currently working with leng lui Miss M, and she's entertaining me with her detailed stories all dayyyy longgg! She could really be a good story teller lol.

k la, saja jer, hope to have a great year ahead, snake year, ong ah! =D


*Don't lost the positivity within! Just a note to myself =)

就这样吗？

我。。 每天都嘻嘻哈哈的 ， 是真正的开心吗？

若是，为何会轻易的被挫折烦扰？

朋友， 每天都绕在身旁，喋喋不休，是真正的交流吗？

若是，为何那空虚感，是那么的沉重？

信心，每天都做勤行唱题，祈祷与祝福，是真正的信心吗？

若是，为何都会有无名的失落感？

凡事都以反省为本，与其改变别人，不如改变自己，作为一个能够领导他人，感动他人，引他人入正途的人。

但是，有时电池真的会消耗，精神真的被用尽。

是有点累了。

Recent thoughts

As I've posted in FB earlier today, or yesterday :
'Recently things got heated up especially towards boycotting the products originated from Israel. They do know that accumulation of little efforts brings an effect to the whole picture. I hope we all as Malaysian can apply such thinking into other issues as well. (Recycling, reduce waste and resources consumption etc.)'

Its time for everyone to understand, each of us wield the power to change, or to do something that will contribute to the world, in a scale that we never in our wildest imagination would ever thought of. IF, we are dedicated and passionate towards the cause of it.

'A great human revolution in the life of one person can change the destiny of humankind and our planet. It is Buddhism, the Lotus Sutra, that encourages and enables people to become aware of their great power, to draw it forth and use it. Buddhism gives people the means to develop themselves thoroughly and opens their eyes to the limitless power inherent in their lives.' - Daisaku Ikeda

Anyway, this is after the talk I've attended that discussed about the current topic of Palestinians in Gaza. I love the speaker a lot, the whole talk was not as extreme, bias, or fueled with hatred, as I've suspected earlier. Based on the social media (which I'm fully aware it is not really reliable), the Israelis are damned, scolded, cursed and all the other words you can think of, but for me, aren't they humans too? Of course, it is evident that Israeli's military forces are using lethal armaments against unarmed citizens, but war are not one sided, the citizens of both sides must be suffering as well.

The speaker yesterday sparked our compassionate heart into feeling the suffering of others as ours, instead of scolding and raging the whole talk into some emotional, motivational speech, she instead, analyzed and explained the whole issue calmly and systematically, including histories and facts. In fact, she has been there in Gaza 2 years back and is going back there this Thursday! An active activist I would say in giving humanitarian aid. So I believe what she said must be of the truth, at least it is much more reliable than social media whereby their details and info can be twisted to feed certain side's needs.

For now, I'm following her plead to boycott, although it is near impossible to boycott all Israeli's product, as Malaysia is not a self-sustainable country, but products like Nestle, Mcd, Maggi, Loreal could all be substituted with other brands, which, I think I have to do a little bit more readings on what are the available brands in Malaysia for chocolate drink. Sigh. lol

Anyway.. Its an issue worth concerning, although I'm not a Muslim, but this is more than religion or culture, this is an invasion towards the basic rights of human to live! It has already oppose the principals in Buddhism where we must treat all beings, regardless of sentient or insentient with utmost respect, what more human life!

And suddenly, there are a lot of other problems that jumped into my mind, national issues, corruption, pollution, politics, environmental issues... ahhh... This all seems to be overwhelmingly complex that most of us choose to be numbed by them and carry on with our daily routine.

 This, however, should NOT be the case.

Joy of sharing faith

Just had the 1st 漫谈之夜，1st time Acad P is doing such activities, and it turned out to be quite successful!
Invited 3 of my course mates and 3 of my ex-college mates, and their response was quite positive and they even agreed to attend next 4D discussion meet!

Now that I realize, the best and happiest thing to do, is to share your happiness with others, and its not as hard and impossible as I used to think about it, just share it sincerely and I guess they will be touched by it! =)

And on the way back to my hostel room, met a few people and they asked where I went just now. Usually I will just brush them off with, 'well, meeting as usual *shrugs*' but this time, having a wholly new determination, I took the time to explain that I went to a meeting about introduction to Nichiren Buddhism and SGM and the next thing I know is that they are quite interested! Especially one of the girl heard of this SGM from her aunt and even know quite a lot about our organization, talk about coincidence!

Just a short post to share my joy today, cheers =D

Unexpected outcome?

Before I start this post, lets have some fireworks display.

*piew piew piew BOOOMM!*

And some toast, maybe?

*Glass clanging sound effect*

Because.... I got nominated as the Course King of the night!! *Please insert dramatic expression* lol

Frankly speaking, it was really unexpected and 1st of all, I would like to thanks my mom, my dad, my bro, my uncle, the cat from the 3rd neighbouring house, the fan in my room, etc etc *oscar style*. lol

NO!

If you notice those pictures in facebook, then you will know how casual I was during the dinner and how much others wore and looked better than me! But maybe its just because of some of the solo performances and the sudden presentation of entertainment I did that left deep impression on them, hmmm~~

From what I can say over here is that, by using your limited time for interaction with people that matters to you *interviewer, judge etc*, what can you do to leave good and great impression on them? Learned something that night, personality and the atmosphere you stir on are factors not to be neglected!

Anyway, paid Rm70, but only drank a cup of cordial orange drink, and a plate of variety of food, very x berbaloi!!! lol, the only thing that comforts me is getting a free watch, 'couple watch' with my partner Course Queen if you want to know, lol, which, I think its kinda normal but its better than nothing! And a grey colour shawl usable for formal functions, pictures kat facebook! Just expressing my disbelief over here hahaha~ But, its a really good experience anyway, WHAT A NIGHT!! =)

The watch I got and the accompanying grey shawl.

Out of curiosity I went and googled up Master Polo brand, which is the watch brand that I got, and this is what I found out!

Rm30 for this couple watch

Ok, maybe not that expensive but I'm actually quite contended with it and with the bangga-ness I had yesterday hahahaha=D

Anyway, I managed to infect most of the people yesterday with my favourite phrase of mine  currently, 'UNTUNGLARRRRr~~~!!' hahahaha

k la that's one good news, till the next post peeps =)

Something to post before you guys forget bout me. lol

'Brian! Mana awak!!'
Oh well, at least that's what I usually hear when some of my ex-coursemate met me. haha,

Anyway, just to update, lets start up with some positive news first!
 i) Leng luis are piling up the sky in my college *drool*

ii) This college is bustling with activities! As oppose to what I thought of a health science student should be, hide in room and burying themselves with 15 inches thick reference books. lol

iii) Spacious and comfortable house + rather friendly (I think!) housemates, still not close to them though. hmmm..

Recently I've been in events and meetings frequently, reaching my room at about 1-2am every night, or rather, morning. lol, because tomorrow would be D-day! Course night, and we have to do a musical performance spanning about 25 minutes, that's why tiap tiap malam practice like mad, even though everybody is having test, but still they are committed to come for practice! Not bad~

One interesting thing is that I've been kinda active engaging in translation works too, but its only from chinese/cantonese to English laa, still practicing, especially on translation live dialogue, with no preparation from the speaker and translate spontaneously! Challenge!

Wanting to improve my English and also, of course, my critical thinking skills in refuting others, I joined college debating team too. I think its a really good chance to train how you will react when someone said something, and to analyze it logically and critically. Of course, the most important thing is to be persuasive enough, luring others into buying your idea, haha I think its kinda interesting~

Hmmm, but something rather unhappy happened recently.

5 more marks to pass my piano exam! Sigh.. 95/150. I know its really a bad score, but , so close!! What a waste... a year plus of efforts and money.....

just a random  picture, the one I am really feeling is....

FAILED!!!
Sigh... But frankly speaking la, although I'm quite disappointed with myself because of not achieving victory in everything I do, but I'm not that entirely sad laa, because I know the effort I'm putting in is really not enough for a grade 8 student!

Imagine, usually a grade 8 pianist would practice AT LEAST 1 hour per day, maybe? That's a very conservative figure, and I only got the time to practice about 2 hours PER WEEEK!! Going back from UPM to Metro Kajang every week via public transport, walking and just to attend the class, so.. its somehow something not too shocking to know that I failed..

Yesterday teacher asked me if I want to take another shot for this, and I'm still considering hard about this, next July would be the exam, and I gotta practice like mad! Although the pieces would be the same thing.. Take the challenge, or not?

A fresh new start, again?

Living room, 3-in-1 toilet and my study table.

As most of you all, or rather, those who I've told to, or those that are concern about me, have already known, I've managed to change my program to Biomedical Science, Hoo-ray to Briannnn!! lol.

So I joined back to the era of 1st year, the atmosphere, the students etc etc, and even to the extent that I have to undergo program/college orientation, ONCE MORE! I lost the passion for it already. lol.. Somehow this feeling is dissimilar with what I had during my 1st year back in 2011, oh well of course, maybe I'm already through with the feeling, and somehow feeling slightly awkward calling seniors of same age as, seniors. haha

This fresh new embarkation was first shrouded with uncertainties and the bureaucracy of the transfer program which involves scholarships and other factors were really wearing me down, I was practically going here and there not knowing what to expect but just to try my luck, and ALAS! Here I am.. Here I am =)

Of course, this would not be a journey of smooth sailing, all on board (5 transfer student altogether) shall face crushing waves (academic burden) and sudden storm (clashing college activities) as we are required to graduate in 3 years. Did I tell you not that this year there will be a whole new curriculum which is totally different from the previous Biomed program? We need to have 147 credit to graduate while the previous batch requires only 133, an extra 13 credit hours with the fact of compacting it into 3 years and having 3 industrial training for each long semester break instead of 1 for the previous batch, so, yeah~

Well, no use lamenting against it! Al iz well, right? =D haha This is what I chose, so this is what I am and this is what I will do. 自己选的路，跪也要跪完下去！！



Anyway, kinda nervous for my piano exam's result after reading Miss S's post. Don't GG please! lol

To-do-list, partially checked

Sliding down a waterfall like a boss?

CHECKED!!

Went to a somewhat picnic-like trip with D, V, TJ, SY, WH and C to Sg Gabai around Cheras area. Not bad, quite fun, but the facilities there are in a dilapidated state, and by this I'm directing it to the toilet.. It was...... seriously in bad condition, all doors wrecked, floor was dirty and the thing is, the water flowing from the pipe is black colour, DAFUQ?!
And sad to say we can really see how irresponsible Malaysian is at preserving the cleanliness of a natural
habitat. Plastics, polystyrene, cigarette boxes littered all around and stuck at cleavages between rocks, to the extent there was even a used soap on one of those big stone! Then my friend say they used to bath just under the waterfall, I was like... o.O seriously? Waaallaoooo...

Then we went up hill and played water there instead because it is cleaner than downhill, it felt great to have so much water at high speed gushing on your body, JAKUZIIII! lol
And and and!! The most exhilarating part for that was SLIDING DOWN A WATERFALL!!! But it is not as steep as you guys imagined laa... 45 degrees at a distance of 10 metres maybe? A great experience nevertheless =)

Go clubbing on 21 years old?

CHECKEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!

lol, am I supposed to be proud with this? Although I know this is something not really healthy or good to do.. Spending hours in a smoke saturated place, thumping loud bass exploding your ear, but oh well, it was quite some experience~

Blinding light, deafening blast, intoxicating liquor, mesmerizing partners, that's all you got in club, basically. A few cups down and a few swings of your head to the blasting bass is what you need to get yourself to the dance floor, and dance, OP-OP-OP-OP, OPPA GANGNAM STYLE! lol daheck.. hahaha....

Definitely wanting for the 2nd time, ajak me ok? xD

The effort that matters.

It was just few hours ago (Wednesday morning) when I was bathing my Rover, and suddenly, a wild stranger appeared! A foreigner and a Chinese and the Ah Mo was like 'Heyyy Mister, do you speak English??'
Me :'Yeah.. But let me get my top on 1st' *was not wearing a shirt that time = =*

Then he started to ask whether if I have any belief or not, and I replied with Buddhism, and there goes, he started to spark up some question such as why are there injustice in the world, do God love, or listen to people as others claim, etc etc.

And I was like, o.O. I mean, well its really good to discuss all these and have a religion-exchange kind of thing but, this is just too sudden and random! Under hot sun with my constantly barking Rover beside me. But he's a nice man, and no doubt a really good speaker! Because he has all those intonation and expression and stuff, and keep constantly throwing me open questions, but well, I just nodded and encouraged him to talk more ahaha, lazy to go in depth discussion...

What I'm trying to say here is that, they are adults, having their proper job, and its under hot sun, going house by house to try to.. well I won't say they are preaching, but propagating their idea. If I'm not mistaken they said they are from Jehovah Witness, and their aim is to pursue knowledge within the Bible. It's quite interesting actually, but the atmosphere is just too weird and sudden lol..

The effort that matters, really, I can see that they are really earnest in doing this although they might (most probably) be ignored or so, but, yeah, good effort! =)

Continuation for the pieces~

This is the 3rd piece, King of a Day, a light jazz that is supposed to be  smooth and pleasant to listen too, but somehow I just banged the keyboard too hard or something. hahaha, do comment~

The 2nd piece is too big and cant be uploaded thru blogger, maybe I will upload it in youtube and share the link over here, till then~ haha